My Journey Towards Freedom

I Have Taken A Beating And I’m Down For A Count…

There is more to success than meets the eye. I have made up my mind to do what it takes to be successful many many times. Hasn’t happened yet though…and I just can’t figure out why. I have been through countless courses on the subject, I have started yet many more courses on it, nothing seems to work. And I have no idea why.

Something is missing, and I can’t figure out what it is. I have read think and grow rich many times, read and listened to Jim Rohn, Tony Robbins, T. Harv Eker, Jeff Olson, and dozens of others. It does not seem to make a difference though…

So…time to switch strategies! I have a bad habit of sticking to a non functional strategy far too long before deciding to change courses. I also have the bad habit of not believing in myself. Another one is this: I am lacking boldness and decisiveness to just throw myself into it and start. I hesitate and procrastinate for some reason. This has become better lately though as I am aware of it and force myself to take action more than I used to.

Another thing I do is hold on to stuff I should share with the world. This is because I come from a home where it was considered positive to live modestly and be poor. That was something my father admired.

He often said “A house should never be finished”…he always wanted to have something half done.

He also often said “You can never have just the right amount of work, you always gotta have more than you can handle, cause if you have just the right amount, you don’t have enough to do”.

To me though this is completely insane. So I guess I have come a long way from where I was.

You see, if you never finish things and get them out of the way, you can never have space and energy to take on new tasks, and get new things. And lack of renewal leads to stagnation.

As for the other one “You can never have just the right amount of work to do, you always gotta have too much”, this is also completely insane. How the heck can you have time and money freedom if you always have too much to do? How the heck can you live a balanced and fulfilled life if you always have the  feeling you should work? How can you have freedom of mind and take charge of your own life, having energy, love and attention to give to others if you always have thoughts about what you should be doing instead?

Like I said, something is definitely wrong here. And I am going to find out what and make it right so I can continue growing into the person I want to be.

I had a talk with my wife last night before going to sleep. She said something that I instinctively reacted against. But now after thinking about it for some time and sleeping on it, she is absolutely right. I have promised to be a success for so long, people are starting to lose faith in me. People don’t believe me anymore. They think I am lying to myself and everyone else having these crazy high dreams for myself and my family.

Let me tell you something, I am getting closer and closer to my dream every minute of every day, because what you give attention, energy, and focus expands into your reality. The trigger that makes it happen is Action. You have to take the right actions in order to get things going.

That action also has to be planned in the right way, you have to find a strong reason Why you want what you want.

Someone also once told me that writing down your goals, putting a deadline on it, and also making sure it is measurable is the only way to make them happen.

I am not good with deadlines and being specific cause I am afraid of committing. Maybe that’s the reason things have not happened yet.

If I push through this and start committing to my own future, being specific, setting specific goals with a deadline, then maybe things will change…

Let’s see…now I’m off to set some small specific goals with deadlines on them, and see to it that they gets done before the deadline. That will give me a positive experience of “What I say will happen actually happens! Yes!”. That is an experience I can use to build on as I push through to bigger and bigger goals.

Until next time…

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